For a true friend

Dear "true friend",
I tried all my life to find you. It was a time when i was capable of giving five,maybe ten years of my life for that. Because i needed you so much, I tried to do everything only to find you.
Now i don't know if I want that so much. It is equal to me if you are here or not. I learned to deal with everything by myself.
But if there will be a moment when you will need me,when you will ask me to save you,I want you to know that I will be there. Because that's the difference between us: I can't be so bad,I can't let you down.
It's your life,your world and I give a damn for it. I don't care if these words hurt you. You deserve to wear them everywhere you go, that will follow you: you didn't do anything when I needed you,not even show up,you left me there alone,with nobody to trust,and the fact that I'm not going to do the same will torture you.
Love,
me!